Return to Oz (1985) – My Horror Origin Story

Return to Oz Official Movie Poster (© Disney)
  • Directed by Walter Murch
  • Based on L. Frank Baum’s Marvelous Land of Oz (1904) and Ozma of Oz (1907)
  • Starring Fairuza Balk
  • Released by Disney in 1985
  • Beware: Spoilers Included

Every horror fan has a gateway film. The movie (or TV show) that alters your brain chemistry until you find yourself with nightly cravings for monster movies, 80s slashers, and supernatural thrillers.

I spent countless weekends as a kid watching horror movies with my dad. He didn’t believe in pesky things like movie ratings, so we bonded over everything from Alien and Tales from the Crypt to The Toxic Avenger. But that wasn’t the start of my horror infatuation, just the outcome. There was also a particularly memorable fourth-grade sleepover watching Night of the Demons (1988) on VHS. The image of Linnea Quigley shoving that whole tube of lipstick directly into her breast is still burned into my psyche, but even that core memory wasn’t the beginning.   

My unintended introduction to horror took place a few years earlier, when my parents let their five-year-old, Wizard of Oz-obsessed daughter watch the unofficial 1985 sequel, Return to Oz. While I readily admit that this overlooked Disney classic is a fantasy adventure for children and not a horror movie, it is in fact, 100% a horror movie.

**WARNING – Spoilers Ahead**

Dorothy Gets Admitted to a Mental Asylum

When the film begins, our beloved Dorothy Gale (played by Fairuza Balk) is back on the farm with Aunt Em and Uncle Henry, but she just can’t sleep. It’s been six months since her whirlwind trip to Oz, yet Dorothy lies awake night after night obsessing over the colorful world she found and the friends she left behind.

Her disposition is understandable. Unlike 1939’s Wizard of Oz, which was shot entirely on soundstages, the outdoor Kansas scenes in Return to Oz were shot during a gray, freezing October in Salisbury Plain, UK. The result is an authentically bleak atmosphere that would feel right at home in a Robert Eggers film. The family is now completely isolated the farm. There are no nosy neighbors or comical farmhands this time around. Dorothy’s only friends are her dog Toto and a chicken named Billina. Everything around them exists in some depressing shade of beige.

Dorothy and Billina on the Saddest Farm in Kansas (© Disney)

The dreary mood shifts into nightmare territory however when Aunt Em decides the best cure for Dorothy’s insomnia is taking her to Doctor Worley’s Sanatorium of Electric Healing after seeing an ad in the newspaper. Yes, as unbelievable as it sounds, the actual premise of the film is an 11-year-old Dorothy Gale getting locked in an insane asylum and receiving electroshock therapy to remove her ‘delusions’ about visiting the Land of Oz.

Dorothy Getting Ready for ‘Electrotherapy’ (© Disney)

While Doctor Worley’s office is beautifully decorated in textured wallpaper and ornate Art Nouveau furniture, the rest of the sanitorium is cold and eerie, with tall, narrow hallways that instantly make you claustrophobic. The soundscape is equally disturbing. Unseen patients are heard moaning or screaming offscreen, accented by the shrill, squeaking wheels of the orderlies’ gurneys. Cementing the asylum’s creepy ambiance is Nurse Wilson, whose cold, unflinching certainty channels an Edwardian-era Nurse Ratched as she escorts Dorothy to her room.

Nurse Wilson Side-Eyeing Dorothy and Aunt Em at the Sanitorium (© Disney)

During a violent thunderstorm, a mysterious blonde girl appears and saves Dorothy just as she is about to get her first electroshock treatment. The two escape into the woods and end up falling into a raging river as Nurse Wilson and the orderlies chase them down. When Dorothy wakes up the next morning she’s magically back in Oz – but this is not the musical Technicolor Oz we saw in the 1939 film. This is something else entirely.

Welcome to Oz – Everything You Love is Gone

The Deadly Desert – If You Touch It, You Die (© Disney)

While Dorothy doesn’t murder a witch upon arrival, she manages to land in the other worst possible place – the Deadly Desert. This treacherous domain surrounds the Land of Oz and instantly kills any living thing that touches it. Lovely. To further complicate matters, Dorothy’s mysterious new friend is gone (presumed dead) and replaced by Billina, her favorite chicken from the farm – but now she can talk!

Dorothy cleverly uses a path of rocks to escape the killer sand before coming across another unexpected feature: the last remains of Munchkin Land. Sorry friends, but the munchkins are just gone. No charming thatched-roof houses and spires of colorful flowers. No expository songs with oversized lollipops. Dorothy is greeted by overgrown woods, the rotting remains of her old house from Kansas, and a very broken yellow brick road.

Dorothy and Billina Examining the Remains of the Yellow Brick Road (© Disney)

The Emerald City is a Barren Graveyard

The Stone Residents & Ruins of the Emerald City (© Disney)

Dorothy follows the broken bricks all the way to the Emerald City (amazingly that takes minutes instead of days this time) and discovers the entire capital in ruins. It looks like a bomb went off. There are no sparkling gems or even intact buildings, only remnants of walls and piles of rubble. If that isn’t devasting enough, all the residents have been turned to stone, including the Cowardly Lion and the Tin Man. The only exception is the Scarecrow – who’s just missing entirely.

This is also where Dorothy encounters The Wheelers, a murderous gang of demon-masked thugs with wheels instead of hands and feet. They laugh like hyenas and emit a shrill, squeaking noise as chase Dorothy and Billina around the toppled columns and the blank-eyed statues that used to be people. Dorothy eventually escapes them by accessing a secret room at the end of an alley. Luckily, there is one good thing left in this dystopian wasteland and it’s Tik-Tok, the Royal Army of Oz, who was hidden by the Scarecrow during the siege on Emerald City.

Nightmare Fuel: The Wheelers (© Disney)

Since Tik-Tok is a robot and technically not alive, he was not turned to stone like everyone else. With his help the trio fight off The Wheelers and arrive at the most terrifying part of the film, the castle of Princess Mombi.

The Wheelers Corner Dorothy in an Alley (© Disney)

I Scream, You Scream, We All Scream for Screaming Heads

Princess Mombi Being Unbothered in her Throne Room (© Disney)

Princess Mombi is the woman who made me fall in love with horror. We first meet the Princess in her castle, ensconced a blinding room of gold and mirrors. Her costume is perfection. She’s draped in yards of expensive fabric, with long gold spikes extending behind her shoulders like gilded porcupine quills. When Dorothy, Tik-Tok, and Billina enter the room, she’s elegantly perched on a red tufted throne that looks straight out of Versailles, solely focused on playing her ribboned lute. She even yawns before extending a limp wrist and asking Dorothy to ‘help her rise’ – an unexpected yet impressive power move.

This calmness of course is just a façade. A way to disarm the trio from guessing her true intentions. All is revealed however when Mombi escorts Dorothy into what I lovingly call the Closet of Heads. This elaborate nook just off Mombi’s bedroom is lined on both sides in elegant cream-colored cabinets with arched glass fronts, each containing a woman’s head propped up on a stand. But these are no war trophies. They are alive. Their eyes are open. They watch Dorothy as she walks through the room. Mombi doesn’t even stop the conversation while swapping the blonde head she walked in with for the raven-haired head from cabinet #4. Changing heads is just like choosing the right wig or hat for each occasion.  

Mombi Casually Switching Heads (© Disney)

We return to this terrifying closet only a few scenes later. After meeting and adopting the aptly-named Jack Pumpkinhead while locked in Mombi’s attic, Dorothy comes up with a bold escape plan. She just needs to build a living airplane out of a taxidermized gump head, two couches, a broom, and some palm fronds.

Yes, our girl Dorothy Gale goes full Frankenstein in order to escape an evil witch who’s only waiting for her to hit puberty so she can steal her head. It’s a kids movie! And while the full ethical implications will not be discussed here, the idea of bodily autonomy, consent, and obtaining God-like powers of creation are all familiar themes in horror.

Reanimator: Gump Edition – With Tik-Tok and Jack Pumpkinhead (© Disney)

Morality aside, the plan hinges on stealing Mombi’s Powder of Life, which is locked in the mirrored cabinet with her original head. Because this is a horror movie barely disguised as a children’s film, Dorothy accidentally wakes Mombi up during the powder heist. The music swells and Mombi starts shouting ‘Dorothy Gale…’ while her headless body shoots up from the bed and starts running towards the closet. Then all the cabinet heads open their eyes and begin to scream.

Extra Nightmare Fuel: Mombi’s Screaming Heads (© Disney)

For five-year-old me, the abject terror of those screaming faces created a full-body rush many horror fans recognize. Your heart is pounding. There’s a pit in your stomach. You’re either breathing too much or holding your breath entirely. It’s a full visceral reaction that once felt either puts you off horror forever or keeps you chasing that high like a fear junkie. I was hooked.

The Nome King’s Mountain of Terror

Jack Pumpkinhead, Tik-Tik & Dorothy Meet The Nome King (© Disney)

While the screaming heads are the horror apex of the film, I have to mention a few more honestly terrifying moments that take place after Dorothy, Jack Pumpkinhead, Billina, Tik-Tok, and their new vehicle/travel companion The Gump, flee Mombi’s castle and find themselves imprisoned within the Nome King’s Mountain.

The Nome King is the true big bad of the movie. He is made of stone and lives below his namesake mountain with his hoard of Nomes, creepy Claymation creatures who mostly appear as distorted faces in rocks and walls. They spy on the world above ground, popping up in boulders and other stone surfaces, then reporting their findings back at the mountain.

One of the King’s Nomes Reporting Back (© Disney)

Not only is The Nome King responsible for the total destruction of the Emerald City and turning all its inhabitants to stone, he also kidnapped the Scarecrow and transformed him into an ornament. It turns out that The Nome King is a bit of a hoarder with a serious obsession with knickknacks (and jewels and shoes). He’s even built a series of connected, museum-style salons within his mountain fortress, all filled with antique chairs, tables, porcelain vases, figurines, and other assorted decorative objects.

To ramp up the horror factor, The King decides to torture the captured crew by tricking them into a ‘game’. Dorothy and her friends can win their friend back by entering The Nome King’s ornament rooms and guessing which trinket is actually the Scarecrow. They have three guesses to get it right. If not, they become ornaments themselves. Of course, The King keeps that last detail confidential at first.

One by one the entire gang is turned into knickknacks; and every time someone is transformed, The Nome King grows more human – as if physically absorbing their lifeforce. The subtle yet deliberate physical changes to The Nome King throughout the ‘game’ sequence from full stone to nearly human is masterfully done and wonderfully disturbing.

The Nome King Becoming Human (© Disney)

The Destruction of Nome Mountain

After all the narrow escapes and over-the-top villainy, the film’s climax is appropriately petrifying. Dorothy ends up finding the Scarecrow (of course) and cracks the code that people from Oz have been transformed into green ornaments (get it, green ornaments = Emerald City). As she continues finding releasing her friends, The Nome King completely loses his mind. The entire mountain starts shaking. Chunks of ceiling fall around them. Fires break out. The knickknacks are flying off their pedestals and shattering. Everyone starts to scream. The implication that some or all of these destroyed ornaments are actually people is not entirely lost on the audience.

The Scarecrow Desperately Trying to Save Ornaments (© Disney)

With The Gump, Jack (plus Billina hiding in his head), and the Scarecrow returned to their living forms, The Nome King is back to full stone but now as a 50-foot rock monster with fireballs exploding around him. He towers over our terrified heroes like a mountain rising out of hell. Gargoyle-faced Nomes lurch out of the walls to grab them. When The Nome King attempts to eat Jack, he’s accidentally poisoned when Billina’s egg falls down his throat instead. It’s not a quick death and the audience gets to watch The Nome King slowly dissolve into a lifeless pile of rocks as the other Nomes look on helplessly from the walls.

The Nome King in Full Tantrum Mode (© Disney)

Fantasy Horror Worth Revisiting

Watching the movie as a kid, I was terrified, enchanted and completely obsessed. I practically wore out my Return to Oz VHS, and it’s still a movie I like rewatching as an adult. I even named my cat Tik-Tok after my favorite Ozian robot.

Alas outside of my household, Return to Oz did not perform well critically or commercially. It also remains Walter Murch’s only directorial effort, which is a real shame. He took some big risks by leaning into the darker side of fantasy (visually and thematically) while choosing to focus more on the Oz books rather than the 1939 movie musical. And those risks paid off. The film has great pacing, gorgeous sets, and impressive practical effects tied together with memorable characters. Casting an actual 11-year-old girl as Dorothy only adds to the character’s vulnerability and brings real tension to the screen as she fights creatures and adults much larger than she is.

The movie is stylish and entertaining, but more than that, Return to Oz provides a unique entryway into subversive horror. Murch takes a beloved children’s character and places her in a world that should feel happy and familiar, but instead offers only terror and destruction. There are layered metaphors and themes of isolation, depression, and abandonment that feel tailormade for a horror movie. Dorothy also spends nearly every scene being chased or imprisoned by serious villains with incredibly dangerous powers. There’s a constant sense of anxiety from the moment she gets to Dr. Worley’s sanitorium to the final flames under The Nome King’s Mountain.

We’re still in Disney territory, so of course the good guys win. The Emerald City is restored to its full green glory, all the statues are turned back into people, and our friends are safe and sound. Dorothy’s mysterious blonde savior from the asylum even shows up in the finale (not dead! yay!) and reveals she’s actually Ozma, the rightful Queen of Oz.

Even with its happy ending and loose ends tired up, Return to Oz reminds us there is darkness lurking in every rock beneath the glittering surface of the Emerald City – just as it always has. And that’s why we keep coming back.

The 10 Best Mood-Boosting Fashion Documentaries

When you need to feel fabulous for a few hours, there’s nothing quite like throwing on a fashion documentary. Something magical happens when you mix oodles of eye candy with the wonder of creative expression and a sprinkle of drama. The most memorable fashion documentaries master visual storytelling that is deeply invested in the subject while showcasing the bigger role fashion plays in how we view ourselves and the world around us. The 10 films in this list radiate the power of creativity and authenticity, whether exploring the lives of designers and fashionistas or taking a behind-the-scenes look at the industry’s cultural pillars.

While not all fashion stories have a happy ending, these 10 uplifting fashion documentaries are ready elevate your mood and your personal style.

Iris Apfel 2014 Documentary Cover, Maysles Films, Inc.
Iris Apfel (2014), Maysles Films, Inc.

1. Iris (2014)

It’s impossible not to smile while watching Iris Apfel just be herself. She exudes a smart, unpretentious charm that is simply irresistable. While so much of fashion feels like unobtainable perfection that requires substantial wealth, Iris’ perspective on personal style is a breath of fresh air – especially for maximalists. There are never too many bracelets, necklaces, patterns, colors. For Iris, real style is all about finding your own voice and leaning into the joy of creating a look you love. It’s mixing a vintage Yves Saint Laurent coat with thrift store dress and stack of rhinestone bracelets from Claire’s. Artfully directed by Albert Maysles (Gimme Shelter and Grey Gardens), watching Iris’s journey from interior design legend to fashion maven to international icon is both endearing and massively entertaining. Whenever I’m in a bad mindset or feeling too self-critical, this movie is my go-to mood booster.

First Monday in May 2016 Documentary, Magnolia Pictures
First Monday in May (2016), Magnolia Pictures

2. First Monday in May (2016)

The Met Gala may have started as an annual fundraiser for the Costume Institute at the Metropolitan Museum of Art, but has since become a yearly cultural touchstone, complete with red carpet coverage that mirrors the Oscars. First Monday in May captures the ups and downs between The Met, Anna Wintour, curators, and Vogue staff as they plan, fight, freak out and ultimately pull off The Met Gala’s wildly successful 2015 exhibition ‘China: Through the Looking Glass’. Along with an inside view into crafting both the exhibit and the infamous party, the doc is chock full of gorgeous gowns, famous designers (Michael Kors, Jean Paul Gaultier and Karl Lagerfeld), and A-listers dripping in drool-worthy looks from Kate Hudson to Rhianna.

3. Advanced Style (2014)

Style doesn’t have an age limit, and Advanced Style reaffirms the joy of getting all dressed up just because you feel like it. Based on the popular blog of the same name by director Ari Seth Cohen, the film follows seven eclectic New York City women (ages 62 – 95), as they share their personal stories, incredible outfits, and style philosophies. While the fashion industry typically ignores women who have matured out of their ingenue years, Advanced Style celebrates the glamour and confidence that comes with experience. The film is also an important reminder that women are fabulous at every age and that the best part of being a grown up is dressing exactly how you want.

Bill Cunningham New York (2010), Zeitgeist Films

4. Bill Cunningham New York (2010)

If you need wholesome content, look no further. Everyone loves Bill Cunningham, the famously humble (and equally iconic) photographer for The New York Times‘s Style section. He spent decades capturing street trends from everyday New Yorkers then biking his way to Manhattan’s most exclusive society galas. In every shot and interview, there’s an infectious joy so inherent to Bill’s character that it rubs off on everyone around him. He loves taking pictures of stylish women, and that passion has resulted in decades of joyfully captured images that chronicle the evolution of American fashion. Anna Wintour even appears for an interview and actually smiles. If Anna’s having a good time, we all are.

Westwood: Punk, Icon, Activist (2018), Greenwich Entertainment

5. Westwood: Punk, Icon, Activist (2018)

Vivienne Westwood’s influence is too big for a single film, but this intrepid doc does a great job of introducing audiences into the many lives of a brilliant designer. Westwood was a singular visionary whose influence shaped British culture far beyond her punk roots. The film follows her working-class upbringing and decades-long career from designing for the Sex Pistols to running a global fashion empire and her passion for political and environmental activism. While Westwood’s story is one of numerous successes and failures, the documentary focuses on the woman behind the clothes, and she’s a wonder to behold.

Dior & I (2014), Paramount Pictures

6. Dior & I (2014)

The emotionally riveting Dior & I follows the creation of Raf Simons’ first Haute Couture collection for the legendary house of Dior as Artistic Director. The beautifully shot film explores the designer’s full creative journey, from his first meeting with the atelier team in Paris to the highly anticipated runway show. The narrative is instantly compelling. Even audiences outside the fashion world are given enough background to appreciate the inherent pressure of a relatively unknown designer creating his first collection for such an iconic, international fashion house. The true joy of the film however, is that it spends just as much time showcasing and celebrating the talented team of craftspeople at Dior who construct and tailor every garment to perfection.

The September Issue (2009), Roadside Attractions

7. The September Issue (2009)

AKA, the movie that let the non-fashion world fall in love with Grace Coddington, the film follows Anna Wintour and Vogue’s harangued staff as they put together 2007’s September issue, the largest (and therefore most important) Vogue issue of the year. There are racks and racks of gorgeous clothing, glamorous photoshoots from NYC to Rome, and plenty of behind-the-scenes drama. The film also features an array of famous faces like Oscar de la Renta, Karl Lagerfeld, Sienna Miller, and Vera Wang.

Diana Vreeland: The Eye Has To Travel (2011), DianaVreeland-Film.com

8. Diana Vreeland: The Eye Has to Travel (2011)

There are women who create the life they want, there are women are women who craft their own mythology – and then there’s Diana Vreeland. This bombastic documentary follows the fascinating life, truths and untruths of the most influential fashion voice of the 20th century. Every inch of this documentary is filled with celebrity interviews and over-the-top stories, while simultaneously cataloging the progression of American fashion. From her trailblazing editorial roles at both Harper’s Bazaar and Vogue to revolutionizing the Costume Institute at the Metropolitan Museum of Art, Diana Vreeland is one of the most captivating subjects a film could ask for, and this film delivers on every level.

Scatter My Ashes at Bergdorf’s (2013), Entertainment One

9. Scatter My Ashes at Bergdorf’s (2013)

Some documentaries offer an honest, unflinching look at their subject matter and some documentaries are more interested in selling a legacy. Enter the latter. Scatter My Ashes at Bergdorf’s may not provide a serious historical record of New York City’s most iconic luxury department store, but delivers a fun and uplifting watch nonetheless. The film equivalent of a coffee table book, the documentary features delightful anecdotes and insights from celebrities, Bergdorf employees, and fashion historians that celebrate impact of this one-of-a-kind institution.

Diana von Furstenberg: Woman in Charge (2024), Hulu

10. Diane von Furstenberg: Woman in Charge (2024)

Diane von Furstenberg is one of the most famous names in fashion, and this documentary celebrates her fierce desire to live an authentic creative life. The film goes all in on the invention of the wrap dress and sensational rise of DVF as a revolutionary American brand along with Diane’s headline-grabbing personal life, from marrying an actual prince to partying at Studio 54. There’s tons of celebrity-fueled stories, gorgeous archival footage, and first-person interviews that allow Diana to share her story in her own words. While more reverential than introspective, the film shines a much-deserved spotlight on one of the most dynamic designers in American history.

Disappearing Ink

Watch it fade

each             character  dissolving

like a ghost

in a mirror                   a word             and then

the sentence                slips    

each and each              (what is)

            meant, the

word       herself        uncooling

and then         

what secrets left          puddle

lose shape,  the body         she thought

a minor                       evaporation

(it does not)                 stutter

the return                    and then

the word          she knows

it isn’t meant

to last,             unlearning itself

a          blossom           in         reverse

This poem was originally published in Cicatrix: A Journal of Experimentation in 2017. I wanted to play with the concepts common in erasure poems, exploring both form and formatting by creating space between the words that can be a placeholder for a breath as well as to leave room for both anticipation and surprise. The idea of ink disappearing also plays with the idea of memory – one of the most frequent themes in my work. I loved the idea of ink fading over time the same way memories fade over time, adding another layer of complexity when trying to relive a moment, a story, or a feeling.

Sigh

Beautiful Summer Meadow Below a Blue Sky in Lenox, Massachusetts

a little breath

            a little breath that walks

her breath,

                a waltz

a waltz in green-blue grasses

feathered high into the salted air

            slanted—                    a breath that tilts each

stalk

                        hiding in air, let’s waltz

opal eyes like pastures gone

                                    momentarily blind

This poem originally appeared in Switchback Journal (from the University of San Francisco) back in 2006. It’s part of a small series of poems I started forever ago about expressive gestures. Additional poems from this mini collection include Wink, Smile, and Leer. When I started the series, I was reading ‘The Seventy Prepositions’ by Carol Snow and enamored with the idea of taking a small gesture and diving into it from physical, emotional, and etymological perspective.

‘Carnival of Souls – Release’ Featured in Paper Dragon Vol. 8

Carnival of Souls 1962 (Pic From ScreenRant)

I’m delighted to announce that another one of my horror movie poems, ‘Carnival of Souls – Release’ has been published in Paper Dragon, Vol. 8. This is the second horror poem I created based on the movie, Carnival of Souls (1962). While both poems are part of a larger collection, I think it’s a bit amazing that CoS is the only movie where I liked two versions of a poem enough to keep both AND that they ended up being published by very different publishers only days apart. ‘Carnival of Souls – Muted’ appears in Simulacra: BarBar Vol. IV (which you can purchase on Amazon).

Both poems are very different from each other and inspired by different themes in the film – which I highly recommend if you’ve never seen it. Carnival of Souls isn’t exactly scary and by modern horror standards, many of the ideas and makeup choices may seem outdated — but the way the filmmaker explores what it feels like navigating the world as a woman (whether alive or dead), feels incredibly timely and relevant. Paper Dragon Vol. 8 is a horror-themed issue and I hope you enjoy reading all the exciting work in this spooky volume. Part of Paper Dragon’s platform is pairing written and visual works, and I was so excited to see my poem set alongside ‘This Limestone Doom’ by Brett Stout. Check out the whole issue and start off the new year with some deliciously creepy work.

Check out Paper Dragon, Volume 8

Simulacra: BarBar Vol. IV Now Available

Simulacra: BarBar Vol. IV - Cover Art

I’m so excited to announce my poem, “Carnival of Souls – Muted” is featured in the newly released Simulacra: BarBar Vol. IV, edited by Cory Nolan. Now available on Amazon, this intriguing anthology promises to transport readers into a realm where reality cannot be trusted, and what you see isn’t always real. Per the editor:

“You are about to embark on a journey beyond the outer reaches, through liminal spaces, into the uncanny valley, where the familiar becomes foreign, the self fractures, and alienation, paranoia, and absurdity await. BarBar Vol. IV, our latest collection of poetry and prose, invites you to confront the void—an infinite regress of pastiche—where reality unravels, and simulation ascends. Here, hyperreality distorts perception, leaving only echoes of existence tangled in existential dread and cosmic horror.”

Featuring a thoughtfully curated selection of poetry and prose, this issue of BarBar is perfect for readers looking to go beyond the ordinary and explore the dark and mysterious corners of the mind.

My personal contribution is from an ongoing collection of poems that explore the themes, characters, and aesthetics of 20th century horror films. Additional poems from this series, including ‘The Mummy’ and ‘Dawn of the Dead’, have also been published. Check out my Publications page if you haven’t read them yet!

Purchase Simulacra: BarBar Vol. IV on Amazon.

Notes on Poetry

At its essence, a poem is the pursuit of a moment. A compulsion to capture, distill, and examine the essence of experience. To trap it under glass and view it through a microscope that gazes past atoms and electrons to the true core of a time, a place, a feeling. We do this for one very specific reason – what can be captured, can be shared.

A poem is the connection linking souls between centuries – a DNA strand of words and images and metaphors designed to tear down the invisible layers that separate humanity by time and space, and communicate the intrinsic tensions that unite us. To say both to each other and the eons ahead – this is what I saw and this is how it felt – join me in this moment that has always and never existed.

The act of reading the poem only serves to create a new moment, fortifying this connection, even as time changes our perception of what that poem means – or rather, how we react to same words viewed through a different place in our own lives.

Poems can grow, you see. They can change shape when you’re not looking. You can read something at 20 and come back to it at 40 with a completely new lens. The moment continues to expand and retract, revealing itself in new ways to each reader. That’s part of its magic.

A poem is a moment in search of a song.

Not Very Quiet: The Anthology

Check out my poem, Pandora’s Kitchen, along with all the other exceptional work from talented poets across the globe in Not Very Quiet: The Anthology, released by Recent Work Press in 2021. You can purchase the anthology directly from Recent Work Press and help support small, independent publishers.

The official anthology description: Over the last five years, from the #Me Too Movement to same-sex marriage, from devastating bush fires to the global pandemic, the online poetry journal Not Very Quiet has dedicated itself to publishing women’s voices from across the globe. Not Very Quiet: The anthology selects poetry that has given voice to the social conscience of the community, constructions of lesbian and queer, the challenges posed to the social construction of gender, as well as the complexities and possibilities of the human condition.

Edited by Moya Pacey & Sandra Renew